dont talk to me ⊙‿⊙
first off thank you for the hugs. /hugs you all back.
so its been a week. I’m still undecided. but it looks like during my silence I was followed by couple of porn blogs?
well… unless you all enjoy reading personal ramblings of a random stranger off the internet, interspersed with mishmash of dog pictures, art, video game and tv shows and whatever else I found entertaining at any particular moment… you may be following a wrong blog.
just so we’re absolutely clear. i do not post porn. ever. I will not follow you back. I will not reblog your posts. so if that’s what you were hoping for, I’m not at all sorry to disappoint you.
and on this unpleasant note, I think I’m going to go back to taking a break. I do know that if I decide to keep my tumblr active, I’m going to be even less social than I was before. I’m never going to be comfortable enough with being friendly enough to forge the kind of connections that I wish I could have. becasue as nice as it sounds, its also exhausting. and often painful.
my husband, actualy found this video for me. it discusses emotional injuries. every issue he mentions - I have hard time dealing with. and spending a lot of time on tumblr, getting immersed in tumblr, in fandoms - amplifies every single one.
but I have also found, that I do need a record, some sort of tangible proof of my existence, something I can look back to. so I’m guess I’m still deciding if tumblr will continue to be that for me.
not sure how long, could be few days, could be more.
going to decide if urge to remove myself from most social media permanently going to win over the need to share and socialize semi regularly.
bolster works ya’ll. and I’m so SO glad that I made sure to get a full set instead of queuing in my ops gear like some of the groups we went up against tonight.
I’m officially a convert.
lvl 53 blues ftw!
P.S. forcing sudden death by stealthing out and hoping to win that way, huh? dirty move little scoundrel, but you forget… I play an operative. We know your trickssss.
I can finally speak again!
dear maker, when I told them I have super sensitive teeth and may need extra anesthetic I didn’t realize they would take me so seriously… I couldn’t feel entire front of my face for hours (and that’s not counting the time I spent napping because I gave up on being able to do anything else).
Galaxy Quest (1999)
I had originally not wanted to see Galaxy Quest because I heard that it was making fun of Star Trek. Then Jonathan Frakes rang me up and said ‘You must not miss this movie! See it on a Saturday night in a full theater.’ And I did, and of course I found it was brilliant. Brilliant. No one laughed louder or longer in the cinema than I did. - Patrick Stewart
No power in the ‘verse can guarantee you’ll get Buffy.
I GOT ZOE WASHBURNE. I ALWAYS SAY I WANT TO BE AS COOL AS ZOE WHEN I GROW UP. MY DAY, MY WEEK, MY LIFE HAS BEEN MADE.
You got: Zoë Alleyne Washburne
You’re a pistol. You have zero time for liars and needless drama. You’re driven, goal-oriented, and have excellent judgment. If there’s a conflict, you know how to deal with it diplomatically without wasting time. You’re also quick as a whip, and extremely loyal to your close circle of loved ones.
You got: Kaywinnet Lee “Kaylee” Frye
You’re naturally hilarious, empathetic, and you’re usually the smartest person in the room (though you’d never admit it). You’re open with your feelings and great at communicating. You’re optimistic, but also realistic, and you hate lying more than anything. People feel a natural desire to protect you, but more often that not, you don’t need protection. You’re an adorable badass.
hmmm… I don’t know about that “never lose my cool” deal… but I do love Inara